Dearly Beloved

So, boredom. 

Hello again.

Yeah, It's been a while. The reason? Not much has happened. Well, I got into some vocational school so thats new. I'll be learning to un-hack things. Cybersecurity and sh*t.

Also, I've (for whatever reason) decided to start therapy for my anger issues.

Well, I guess we'll see how that goes.

Oh therapy can you please fill the void?

Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed?

Nobody's perfect and I stand accused.

For lack of a better word and that's my best excuse.

A random personal post...

So, Just random but I just felt like posting this.

The internet fr me is a sort of release. See, I have serious anger issues. Like, I get so angry I just snap, and lose control. I have almost hurt several people when this happens (5th grade: tried to smash my friends head with a rock, 7th grade: Threatened to kill a bunch of people with a pair of scissors, Recently: Tried to punch my little brother square in the jaw for no reason). However, this happens rarely for one reason mainly: The Internet. I tend to vent/release frustration/built up anger on here. It helps.

Why am I telling ya'lls this? I have no fucking idea honestly. I just felt like it.

Have I mentioned I also have an issue with cursing frequently? Well, I do. Live with it.

Give me novacain

I just found my tube of Orajel pain relieving gel. You know, that numbing gel? I love this shit. It makes my whole mouth go numb, and I LOVE that feeling, or lack thereof. That, mixed with me being tired (the good "late-night" tired, not the bad, groggy, "first thing AM" tired) feels very enlightening, liberating. Like my mind is free.

Gives the song lyrics a whoooole new meaning.

Out of body and out of mind.

Kiss the demons out of my dreams.

I get this funny feeling its alright.

Jimmy says its better than air.

So drain the pressure from the swelling.

This sensations overwhelming!

Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything'll be alright.

Tell me that I won't feel a thing.

And give me novacain.

A little philosophical thought I had about the book of genesis (That's the first book, right?)

So I was thinking this morning about the story of Adam and Eve, from the book of genesis. You know, the first book in the bible.

So, God created the tree of wisdom, but told A&E that if they ate from it, they'd die. Well, Lucifer, in the guise of a serpent (It infers that serpents used to have wings), told Eve that the tree wouldn't kill her, but instead make her smarter. So she and Adam ate the apple from the tree. And they became smart, and knew the difference between "Good" and "Evil", according to legend. Oh, and then Yahweh (God's name in the original Hebrew bible) punished the serpent by getting rid of its wings and making it crawl on the ground forever.

But anyways, this raises two questions from me:

One: The bible said the snake was lying and being deceitful, by tricking Eve. But if you think about it, the snake was telling the truth, and God was the one lying. God said that eating the apple would kill you, but serpent said that it will make you smart. Well, guess who was right. The serpent. Yes, he made them separate from God, but he told the truth. God lied. Think about that.

Two: Why the ever-loving fuck did God make that damn tree in the first place? If he didn't want them to eat from it, why make it? it seems redundant to make something you don't want used. It seems to me like he was bored, and wanted to make something dangerous for his own amusement. Like the story of Pandora's Box from Greek Mythology. The gods were bored, so they made the first woman, and gave her a box and told her to never open it. Well, of course she fucking opened it. And then all the "evil" was released into the world. Same with Adam and Eve. The first (well, second. Lilith was first. She just didn't want to be a slave to Adam, so she was demonized) woman was given something dangerous (in this case, an apple tree), and told never to use (eat) it. Well of course she fucking ate it. It seems that God knew this was going to happen.

Interesting note, both the bible and Greek Mythology (and Aztec) tell of an apocalyptic flood, where humanity survived by having one family of people, with a shit-ton of animals, build a huge ass boat and sail on the rain water.

Well, that's all for now.

Favorite Son

So, I found out the other day that one of my friends joined the marines.
....
I'm not sure what I think about that. He says it gives him something to live by, a code, something that gives his life purpose. But what good is a purpose, when that purpose is to kill other people? And why is it OK for us to do it, but so wrong for other countries? We says we're the good guys, but then again, so does everyone else!

Truth is: there are no good guys in real life. And even id there were, they wouldn't wear red, white, and blue!

A clean cut all american! Really 'ain't so clean! His royal auditorium! Is a murder scene!
Its your favorite son!
Its your favorite son!

Well noone says its fair...to turn teenage lush, to a millionair!




NOW WHERE'S YOUR FUCKIN CHAMPION?!?
 On a panty raid!
He's not the all american, that you thought you paid!

It's your favorite son!
It's your favorite son!
It's your favorite son!
But isn't it a drag?

American Idiot

I realized this morning. The themes in the song "American Idiot" and "Rock Against Bush" are still prevalent to this day. The war on terror, stupid presidents, needless fighting in the middle east, to seek revenge for some plane crash that happened 13 f*cking years ago! Its amazing how little society has changed in the past few years when apparently so much else has changed.


Welcome to a new kind of tension!
All across the alien nation,
Where everything isn't meant to be okay!
Television dreams of tomorrow!
We're not the ones who're meant to follow,
For thats enough to argue!

City of the dead...

I'm bored.
Of. Everything.

Life is just the same old routine now. Wake up, shower, warren tech, lunch, school, home, homework, TV, sleep, wake up, start over.

The only good thing is that I graduate this year. Maybe I'll travel around a bit before starting college.....see the country....maybe....

No, I will. I need to get out of here. Try new things. Something to escape this boredom.....

Meh.


City of the dead!
At the end of another lost highway!
Signs misleading to nowhere!

City of the damned!
Lost children with dirty faces today!
Noone really seems to care!